fear and apprehension

it's a very strange feeling to have spent so many months looking forward to grad week, and then when it arrived, to think that all of that excitement was overrated after all. stranger still, to go in having been stripped of expectations and then discover that i really enjoyed graduation dinner after all.

lots of people seem to be expecting me to feel exuberant about this next phase of life. truth be told, i'm having real difficulty mustering any real enthusiasm. mostly because the future is looming, and it looks very daunting.

fear and apprehension.

but take heart! for courage is not the absence of fear, but acting in spite of it (Mark Twain).

it is less than 48 hours until we make our oaths.